If I had known
what he was going to do
I would have fought harder
If I had known
How he was going to hurt me
I would have fought to the death
If I had known
He would show no mercy
I would have given none
If I had known
He would ignore my screams
Or act like my screams only
Annoyed him
I would have screamed louder
I would have done these things
More than I did
But it was all I had at the time
Against a man whose weight
Was twice mine
Whose hate
I didn’t understand
Went way beyond me
And how he saw me
That he emphasised my beauty
As if I were the enemy
And everything I had
He took from me
Stripped away
Like my clothes
And my dignity

©GS

If he tricked and trapped you into it, is not consent

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