Peace – GIRL SURVIVOR

When you did that
When you spoke about going away
So easily
A little bit of me closed off
Didn’t die
Just retreated inside
I cried and I cried
I felt so deep

You said
Have your feelings for me changed?
I couldn’t answer
Lately I need quiet
Lately I didn’t need
So many words
With you

I just wanted to lay down
With you and I
Lay my head on your chest
I feel your arms around me
So comforting
Here I am safe
I’m never bored

You were there with me
Sometimes
When I was
In the depths of hell
Crying for
My lost soul
The parts of me I left behind
I could never share with you
Or maybe I will

I said
I’m not a woman any more
He took all that from me
Did I lose all that?

You said no
You are, you are!
You’re beautiful
I love you

My heart leaps when you
Say this to me
Like it didn’t when
Anyone said it to me
Before.
I said

Home is in your arms
That might be my new song
It’s a boring title
Maybe, no?
You say:

“No
It isn’t.
Really,
I like it”

©GS

My own fear of abandonment. Something I had to face. This deep vulnerability, that left me always leaving first, Until I find real love. Then this really hurts to face the risk of loss. To love yourself when you are alone, is a start, Only then can I feel home.

Surviving rape shatters deep parts of you that really hurt to try to put together. To be with someone who is prepared to sit with you through the pain. When I have felt so worthless, to hear “I love you,” from someone who really means it, is incredible to me.

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Strong and stable
They could have built hospitals
In Syria with those billions of funds
Not to mention here
Shows them that violence is wrong
Teach them about using chemical weapons
While Stockpiling more of em
What was the budget for this one?
You don’t care for immigration
So stop dropping bombs
On sites you already bombed
How about stop invading everyone?
Nobody to teach a lesson to
When all the bodies gone
Not a moment
To care for our loved ones
Those kids who
Could have been doctors
Could have written songs
You didn’t give a shit
When they turned up at our borders
Seeking asylum
Though even you recognise
That is justified
You seek no solution
Only war and fighting,
Pollution
and racism
It’s not progress
It’s regression
Where was our referendum?
It’s only when convenient
You have them
Keep the public arguing
Glued to their stupid television
Wondered what that propaganda was
About gun crime in the East End
Your sudden concern
About working class kids
In N17
It was just you gearing up
For the real war machine
Keep people scared
takin our healthcare
Keep crushing our dreams
Feed us nightmares
Then line yourselves up
As authorities
With the power to appease
You are nothing but murderers rapists
And thieves
more blood money up in smoke
this is not democracy
that is nothing but a joke
The war is illegal
No permission from parliament
let alone the people
bombing won’t save lives
or bring peace, no.
if you are our government then
listen when we speak
you don’t act in the name
of the people on our streets

GIRL SURVIVOR

Don't be Silenced

Tag: Peace