This doesn’t touch the surface
Telling me to focus
On my inner sun
It doesn’t stop the pain
The damage that was done
The authorities don’t want
Free thinkers
Bold speakers
Criticism
Questions
Dismiss these as
People’s inner demons
When in fact
We just want freedom
From Oppression
©GS
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#StopOppression #FemalePoet #AnnaJuliet #Poet
I love you darling
You are my heart
I love to swim in salty water with you
and touch you in the night
I love it when you hold me
I don’t let many people see me cry
I miss your cooking
I miss your cat
I miss your hugs
I miss you
I don’t miss a beat
when you’re here with me
I want you be always there with you
I’ m just better
I just get there with you
I don’t want to go on without you
I love my life with you
when I’m on my own I miss your arms
around me
I miss you
kiss you
cari ti
©GS
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When you did that
When you spoke about going away
So easily
A little bit of me closed off
Didn’t die
Just retreated inside
I cried and I cried
I felt so deep
You said
Have your feelings for me changed?
I couldn’t answer
Lately I need quiet
Lately I didn’t need
So many words
With you
I just wanted to lay down
With you and I
Lay my head on your chest
I feel your arms around me
So comforting
Here I am safe
I’m never bored
You were there with me
Sometimes
When I was
In the depths of hell
Crying for
My lost soul
The parts of me I left behind
I could never share with you
Or maybe I will
I said
I’m not a woman any more
He took all that from me
Did I lose all that?
You said no
You are, you are!
You’re beautiful
I love you
My heart leaps when you
Say this to me
Like it didn’t when
Anyone said it to me
Before.
I said
Home is in your arms
That might be my new song
It’s a boring title
Maybe, no?
You say:
“No
It isn’t.
Really,
I like it”
©GS
My own fear of abandonment. Something I had to face. This deep vulnerability, that left me always leaving first, Until I find real love. Then this really hurts to face the risk of loss. To love yourself when you are alone, is a start, Only then can I feel home.
Surviving rape shatters deep parts of you that really hurt to try to put together. To be with someone who is prepared to sit with you through the pain. When I have felt so worthless, to hear “I love you,” from someone who really means it, is incredible to me.
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#AnnaJuliet #GirlSurvivor #RapeSurvivor #BelieveHer #NoMore #BreakThe Silence #DontBeSilenced #AbuseSurvivor #WomensLivesMatter #GirlsLivesMatter #EndVictimShaming #Intimacy #Relationships #Love #Home
We keep writing out the silences
Hoping for a remission
In this constant oppression
Me and my sisters
Report men’s crimes
Like it’s our own confession
Still we live with this daily suppression
Police say things like
You liked him
By your own admission
By your manner and your
Underwear
You gave him permission
I cannot live in this
Derogatory rule
The one that taught me
I am secondary
Since before school
You are a minor
Then you are a female
be good and respectable
This includes
A blind eye to abuse
A woman’s truth
Eradication of my youth
& My right to choose
My right to refuse
We keep writing out the silences
Speaking out
And paying the price for it
Those saying I am not nice for it
Those saying I am full of lies for it
We have evidence to back up our
Meticulous truth
The brutes have only
Their brutality
Their numbers and
The so -called legal system
in all it’s glory
Their ignorance and dismissal
Of trauma
and injury
Their deliberate blind stupidity
Determination to silence us
no matter the violence
Keep racking up our sufferance
We already extended our tolerance
Beyond all
What normality
Could comprehend
Rape is a hate crime
Not an I can’t wait crime
It is a crime of anger
Bitterness of entitled men
Who refuse to regard
Certain of us as human
And their sleazeball
Cowardly friends
Who lie for them
and back them.
Desire for
what he thinks
he can’t have
A woman or girl leaves the
Situation distressed
Dishevelled
Feeling like hell
Because of how he,
the perpetrator
treated her.
Who scorned
And unleashed contempt
Then one day
When a kind man
Held me in his arms
I didn’t know
What it was like
To be with someone
Who respected my no
Who cares enough
It mattered to him
Without an argument
Without coercion,
Rage
I keep writing the truth on every page
©GS
♥
GIRL SURVIVOR 